LOST

April 3, 2011 – LOST

For the past couple of years I have been a huge fan of LOST.  I watched a lot of other shows, but LOST was the show that I recorded and watched every week.  I even re-watched episodes and bought the DVD box sets to analyze the episodes.  At first I thought the whole premise of the show was stupid.  A plane crashes and they get stuck on an island.  We saw that already with ‘Lord of the Flies.’  I didn’t know what they could possibly do with the show.  The reason why I started to like the show wasn’t the fact that they were on this mystical island but because the way they told the story.  In the first couple of seasons they would have flashbacks of the characters which gave the audience a more in depth analysis of the character.  In later seasons they would show flash forwards and in the last 2 seasons they would have flashes of a parallel universe, as if they never landed on the island.  These flashes were a huge part of why I liked the show because it was as if they were dreaming and then they would wake from the dream only to find themselves on the island again.

For the past week or so my dreams have felt like that.  The dreams are so vivid that I feel that this is my alternative reality.  My dreams are filled with my family, friends, strangers, and acquaintances throughout the years, and all in different places.   Some of the places seem familiar others not so much but each time I dream I feel that it is real.  I wake up remembering conversations as if they were already part of my memory.  The other night there was a dream that I was surrounded by my family and we were discussing as if I had not yet left for the Ukraine.  In the dream it felt real.  I remember feeling nervous and anxious knowing that I was going to be leaving for the Ukraine.  And I soon found myself waking up and realizing that I was already here.  More and more my dreams are starting to feel like my only connection to my friends and family back home.  Without access to the internet on a daily basis I feel lost without the technology.  I don’t feel the need to have internet everyday but I do feel the need to keep the connection to my family back in the states.  In this way I feel that my dreams are the only thing connecting me to who I am.  Just as in the show LOST my flashes or my dreams you might say are just a way of separating the unknown to that of what is comfortable. 

In my dreams it feels real and I feel connected, where as in my reality I feel LOST and unconnected.  Only time can tell if my reality will be like my dreams, real and connected.  And hopefully when I do wake up from my dream I will no longer feel LOST.